Sad and Frustrated

So seeing that I've never been pregnant and don't have a clue how it all works understandably I wouldn't know much about what happens at certain points in a pregnancy. That being said Steve and I planned on trying this month because my ovulation day would put us at exactly 24 weeks for the cruise should I happen to get knocked up this month. WELL little did I know that even though the times have changed, apparently the ideas on how you calculate a pregnancy haven't. Back in the old days, the only thing they had to base how far along a woman was in her pregnancy was her last period. So even though it's scientifically virtually impossible for you to get pregnant for those days between your period and when you ovulate (since there is no egg), they still count those days as part of the pregnancy. They're result, instead of basing your weeks pregnant on times that you could actually be pregnant is to include those days, which for me is usually about 2 1/2 weeks. This is turn royally FUCKED me in regards to trying to get pregnant because I have to have proof for the cruise line that I am not starting my 24th week by the end of the cruise.

So granted I know that it's highly possible that we wouldn't even get pregnant but there is a disappointment in not getting pregnant when your trying and a whole other disappointment when your not allowed to try. I called the cruise line yesterday and they told me my due date couldn't be before October 11th. If we were to actually get pregnant this month I would be due around September 17th. Now Corrine says to just lie to my doctor about when my last period was, then I could get the notice needed for the cruise and later through ultrasound they would just make the correction. I mean it wouldn't be the first time I played dumb blonde, even though my OB knows better. Then that's the other thing, I could probably convince my current doctor easy to give me the notice but I might be switching to Steve's insurance and who knows what would happen with a new doctor, especially with Kaiser.

So all in all, I'm not allowed to try to conceive my Christmas baby and that totally blows chunks! Now I will no longer have the chance at a September baby which means I get two shots before Steve says we have to wait again because he doesn't want a Christmas baby birth (understandably, me neither, those kids get jipped). It's just frustrating as hell to have to keep waiting, I wish we would have tried a lot harder to get pregnant in those first couple months after the wedding. Then we were just letting it happen...now look where that got us. You cant win if you don't play and I wanted to play the flipping lotto damn it.