No spotting, please go away!

Does it help if you beg? So I got a bunch of brown spotting this morning and I partially think I'm done for. I really really really hope I'm not but now I'm starting to feel a little cramping too, although I think that may be somewhat psychological. Usually when AF shows up I don't get cramps until I actually see red, well at least 8 out of 10 times. So therefore I think my cramps are somewhat in my head!

I am really hoping that its not AF, I mean something has to explain the soreness in my chest for the last 10 days. I guess it doesn't help either that I feel like I'm starting to get sick. If AF doesn't show up today I'm sure I'll know for sure tomorrow by my temp.

This cycle would be great for a BFP, we could tell my dad, MIL and rest of our close family/friends on mothers day (my mom and BFF will know the day off) and then tell everyone else when we get back from our cruise in June! But maybe that just means I'll have to find better timing for next cycle, like tell on Fathers day and then everyone else on our 1 year anniversary! I'm really hoping for a December baby though, I'd love the end of year tax write off, lol.

Oh well I'm holding on until I know for sure but it's not looking good for me! For now I'll go back to begging the spotting to go away!