I never would have thought a year ago that I would still not be pregnant. I have learned so much in the last year about the TTC process and truly look forward to being someones mommy! I thought I was so on top of it by knowing I should be off the pill for a bit before we even started trying. I even dealt with AF tagging along on our honeymoon because my cycles we no longer predictable. Little did I know, I knew nothing in the grand scheme of things. I also have to take into account that 4 months out of this year were spent TTA, but still, I just have this weird feeling knowing it's been a year since I last took one of those little pills!!!!
So now I sit here in the 2ww, waiting until Friday to test, cramping and uncontrollably burping hoping having sex so many days in a row actually worked. I honestly am so pessimistic about the process now, I was telling Steve that yesterday at dinner. While there is always a hope that it will happen, I don't expect it anymore, I don't even think it will. Somewhere along the lines I implanted it in my brain that I am going to be one of the unlucky ones and deep down I want nothing more than to prove myself wrong! I guess seeing disappointment over and over from ladies still trying and then seeing 1st timers get a BFP their 1st cycle, you can't help but become a little pessimistic.
Oh well, what can I do but get myself through the rest of this 2ww!
Monday, April 27, 2009
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2 comments:
Good luck this cycle, I hope this is the one. Also good luck with your house guest tonight. Hope the little one falls asleep quickly....and stays asleep!
Im sorry. I really hope you get that BFP this cycle. Don't give up!! In the end it will be sooo worth it!
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